And lo, I return... Summer has passed by, marked by several interesting events. Some of them incredible and life altering, some of them terrible and the cause of great suffering. I have made it through, not unscathed but rather having gained some new and interesting perspective.
My life, though not nearly perfect, is better than it ever has been before. I have my problems, yet they seem so much less stressful. I am not worried about being hurt, I think anymore. I mean, I know it will happen, that I will get hurt. But I have made it this far, so I guess I can handle a little pain... ha! I can handle a lot of pain, and I do... every single day... And now Fall is settling in and my body aches, the change in temperature and rises and drops in air pressure cause my joints to sing with pain.... never mind the muscular abuse I must suffer each day... Fibromyalgia....fukkin painful...
But really, I know I will get hurt, its part of the learning process, I suppose. I accept it as I also accept who I am, all of it, oddity bordering on the brink of complete insanity all wrapped up in the prettily painful packaging... But now? In my life? The one I love does not hurt me, does not seek to bring my pain, does not seek to twist my reality for his own purposes and I am steadier for it.... It's so nice a change of pace... Love for it's sake alone.... I highly recommend it!
So enjoy the new photos I'll be posting in the next few days or weeks while I fall in love with Autumn all over again!